Reflective Writing 2

The incident begins with this. Before year 2006 starts, which was in the month of December of 2005, it was then the new EXCOs and committees of the Boys’ Brigade were selected and as such, I was elected to hold the few posts I was holding; leading the Drill Committee was one of them. A week from the election, I’d hold a meeting to discuss about the plans we’ll be going to do in the year of 2006 and the drill competition was one of the planning. Since I was the Drill Committee leader, I was asked to organize the competition. So, right after the meeting I went back home and drew a draft for the competition, get back the letter copies of 2005’s competition ( I was the vice-chairman for the competition) and planned the things that is needed to be done. After that, I made the Drill Competition Committee. Since I wanted to give experiences to the juniors, I’d made one of the Form4 members, X to be the secretary.(the biggest mistake i'd ever make)
So, a few days after that, I’d hold another meeting for the drill competition committee members and distributed my planning to them. I’d drafted everything out that they themselves would not need to plan anything else but just follow what I’d given them and asked them to finish within the time frame given. Of all the committee members in this event, the secretary is the most important member. The secretary, which is X, have to send letters to the school to get their permission to the school, to lend equipments, to invite participants from other schools and etc. So, to ease his burden, I’d given him all the letters I’d type for the previous competition and asked him to follow back what I’d done and making just a bit of changes to the dates and a bit of the details and to send the letters at the beginning of January as the competition will be held at the month of June, half a year later. I’d liked to finish the job earlier because we’re more free in the beginning of the year and we could give the other school teams practice for the competition.(their job is extremely easy since i'd cracked my head in planning everything)
So, at the end of January, I’d hold another meeting to find out the progress of each department and was glad to know that most of them finished what I asked them to do. Everyone did well except X. When I asked him about the letters, he told me that he haven’t prepare it. As the competition was months away, I do not blame him for not prioritize the work thinking that he’d more important things in hand and forgave him. Giving him a second chance, I asked him to finish his job by the end of February. So, there’s nothing much to do for the moment thus I thought that it was needless to hold any meeting 2 months from the competition(April) and focus on other events instead.(sigh, the captain asked me to let him do some work, if not, i'd sent those letters myself dy)
At the end of March, when I was hanging with my friends whom not all of them join the Boys’ Brigade , we stroked up a conversation about drills. Suddenly, one of them asked me when will we organize the drill competition. I’d felt strange and asked about the invitation letters and participation forms and get to know that none of them received anything. With rage, I’d went to confront X which was suppose to have finished sending every letters I’d asked him to. When he answered that he still haven’t do anything, I went berserk, scolding him like there’s no tomorrow, giving severe punishment; doing rounds and pumping. I’m not sure why I’d did such a thing to him. I didn’t even let him have a chance to defend himself or to talk his way out. I was really angry with him that the anger took over my consciousness, rendering me to making insane decisions. For that, I was being sent to see the teacher advisor and the discipline teacher for being harsh to my members. Apart from that, I notice that X was afraid of me and kept a distance from me and we were unable to cooperate much for the next few months.
(really F**Ked him 9 9.. i'm not the only one, my EXCO secretary joined forces with me.. haha.. double team.. the teacher punishing us the part din happen actually.. XD... but tell you, he was damn afraid of me after that- though after that incident i din rely much on the juniors dy)
Though I knew that my reaction was too much, but still, I can’t be blame thoroughly. I’d expectations on him, I’d put my belief in him. That was the first time I’d encountered such people. I’d always trust him but then, he betrayed my trust. I would say that it was because of this that contributed me to being aggressive towards the incident.
From this incident, I’d learnt that we shouldn’t expect too much from others which is we have to follow up with the progress and not leaving it alone to others. I learnt that I shouldn’t be too passive. I should’ve told him when he did wrong for the first time. I knew that I was wrong for punishing him without even asking for the reasons for failure of sending the letters. I should have given him a chance to defend himself first. I shouldn’t punish him severely, instead I should’ve just speak out to him about his irresponsibility in the hope of changing him. Apart from that, I think we should sit together and come up with a backup plan instead of just scolding him.
If I were to be in the same situation next time, I’m sure I wouldn’t be aggressive but be assertive instead. (haha.. assertive?? i'm not so sure about it..... after this incident, i lost all my interest in organizing nor being a committee in any activities.....)